18 April 2009

Facts & Trurth About My Life


From my perspective. So far the past month I haven't really been up on this. All thanks to school and work. I've been more rapt to my studies than ever before due to the fact that my life right now is down to the gutter. I try my best to neglect and ignore it, but I have come to a solution in which I will have to face this adversity. I'm at my all time low, and now that I'm down here there isn't anywhere else to look but upwards. Currently I have been staying involved with study sessions and events at school just to keep me on track. However, I still seem to be distracted by life's temptations. It's hard not to call a friend just to chill or go out to a party or club or just enjoy social events. Don't get me wrong attending social events are good for the body and a great stress reliever, but doin' it ever so often can only lead to self destruction. So I try my best to avoid that!

Girls? damn, don't even know where to begin. It's hard to get in a relationship as you get older. I'll tell you that for damn sure. It is true that its either many of the good ones are taken or they are involved with another guy. At this point in my life, I don't even know why I'm trying to get a girlfriend. All that is done for now though, I've been trying my hardest not to believe in relationships. since Lupe preached it "relationships are just twenty minutes long, its kinda heavy, maybe a little strong" It's just quite hard to cope when my cousins/bestfriends marc and sean have theirs and they are happy. Maybe I'm too niice, maybe im too kind, maybe im too forgiving. I dont know what it is. Maybe I just haven't found the right one yet, maybe im trying to hard? LMAO no clue. Sometimes I just feel like giving up. Sometimes I feel hopeless, though I'm very hopeful hhahaha fck it Maybe someday, maybe never. Single For Life! hahaha JP that would be really sad and lonely. I wouldn't want that. BUT FOR NOW FCK IT! THUG LIFE!

On a good note though, my network at UC Riverside has been growing and its amazing. My outlook on life is pretty much clearer than ever and the methods for handling my business has improved. Although I have been losing contact with some of the people I used to kick it with, I always seem to find others who are there willing to chillay chill. Anyhow this post is gettin wa too long without photos. I'm prety sure you didn't read all of it, but if you did then I mend you for successfully completing a task most fail to do. Thanks, Good Night. I hope I did not offend anyone in anyway and if I did it wasn't my intentions. I'm just quite aggravated from today, took the day off for nothing, never again! *sighs Peace Bitches!

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